Sleep: The Great White Buffalo

Would I ever see it again? A couple weeks ago, I didn't think I would. I missed it like a long lost love. I thought about it all the time. My 3 month old didn't seem to need it... So, why did I? It toyed with my delirious mind. When my baby would finally go down for a few hours I would get in bed so tired but I couldn't find my way to Neverland. Why, oh why? As soon as I would finally drift off, the baby would wake. I would daydream at night about the few 7 hour nights she had slept. I didn't know why she had sleep regression. I searched the Internet high and low about what to do. Reading about the "4 month leap" and how they can go through that early. Must've been it! 
Trying the crib out. Watching her like a hawk!

Something has happened the past week though. Prayers have been answered. She
has slept 6-7 hours every night! Last night she slept 9. NINE!!! A big leap from 2-4 hours at a time! It seems we finally have a routine established.

Maybe it was the luck of the Irish!


Now, what to do about my insomnia from exhaustion? I had to take advantage of these nights while I could! Who knows how long this would last?! 

I discovered melatonin. Hello, my new friend. Where have you been all my life? 

I'm still tired all the time, what mom isn't though? But 6 and 7 hour nights... Regularly? I can work with that! I pray and hope this routine continues. With sleep I am a much better person. Period. 

I believe having a strict bedtime routine has helped. I wouldn't dare miss a night now! Trying to establish a strict nap routine during the day as well. This helps her and I both. I am learning as I stumble along this curvy back road called "Motherhood". It is riddled with potholes. A bumpy and cautious ride, but never boring!

So tiring!


So...

Dear Sleep, 

I know we won't be the same for a long time. You were so good to me through my younger years. You made me so happy and feel so good! I took you for granted and I'm sorry for that. Please, know that I miss you but I have a new love now. She's my whole world and well worth every moment that I don't see you. 

Love always,

Your old friend 

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